ringing a bell

so yes
I told myself today
I built my motivation
I can either be afraid
and remain the average woman I yearned and yearned to be
or I can tell myself
who ever I am but in order to be ahead in life
now if i have to be strong
hold my head high
and for myself
but also for a every1 i love too
let me so this go for it
I  am not my fears
Iam everything I will emerge after facing them
my dreams are so colourful so complete so yearning so calling so bubbly so bountiful so futuristic so space travelleresque why would I deny myself this pleasure
I workandplay to meet my progress full face forward heads on :-) yes
I wana be very happy for the next n no of years of my life ....yooohoooo:-)

I guess
it is okaye 2 how I feel today
like a tremble
like a shivering bundle
of nerves as usual
it's ok for all the motivation to be gone
and telling yourself
uh but
build again .
it's okaye
to whirl
in the wake of your dreams
I'm put here
there must be few purposes here n there
4 me 2 accomplish too
it is very okaye to deal
with fears
best to learn and know
everyday is a new new new newer newest beginning
it's a chance with my best bettering self
I'm one
with universes
with time
with divisions
night n day
n every other
it's the ikonkara
happens n keeps coming
(don't be so guilty of enjoyment r)
ishould just know
I'm worth it. too.
I want every living being 2 be happy right
why am I 2 disinclude myself
me
too ok
ji hanjie
let my travel begin towards more n more light
exquisite light
inclusive light
closing eyes
Sai raam
omkareshwar
Narmada
merging

don't hurt my heart

dont hurt my heart 
its already broken in a thousand different pieces
i never chose to be so frail and fragile 
its just whatever it is 
i probably became the opposite of what the world is 
everything appears stronger than me 
so softly ami passing on

it is .. still true .. i still do not .. dislike anyone .. 
surprisingly even those that hurt me inhumanly too 
its their darknes
i love our earth and all her life i do 
with all my heart 
i cannot see differences 
but if i feel hurt i do move on .. 
my heart feels 2 me the most sensitive .. life .. there is .. 
im so thrilled and happy for these recent blessings arriving 2 me .. :) 
there is so much silence right now ... 
i feel blessed for this ... .
hopefully i can absorb this 
n become calmer and calmer 
more soon later  

 

There is one architectural heaven that was created by an architect n itscalled fFarnsworth house ...iv can't  get over it .........vvim ready to dissolve n dissolve n dissolve in this white heaven. Yo.
Let's make replicas let's emulate let's get there ...fffffaaaaaarrrrrrnnnnnssssswwwwwooooorrrrrttttthh house .home ere I come 

What are bloggers cald who stay up the nite to blog on a blog which won't reach anyone ..for selfv.....it defies the concept No??? The world wants to reach out i wantvto reach in.
Its a drag to go to workvnbshow up  for everyone else ..no imbnot depressed ..lol..in a great prizgve mood of my own..
Fb got yyfun too..yet god I'm happy for this secret elixir rasa........
Sum1 like me should not have even taken this reincarnation .....
hmmphmm
Hmmmm

So glad I have this blog for myself ..frombthe world's prying eyes..I shudnt have even shared it minimally as i have had ....
Neway..
Glad to. Have this ..

Strength is not fighting petty on the surface.
Its a reserve from deep within.
Strength requires you to look before you speak.
It requires you to understand the nature of your fight before you jump.
sometimes wrath is acceptable.
but not when others are at stake.
a rule of leadership is to never threaten someone
to leave the nucleus, unless you were very sure.
especially never ask someone sort of weaker than you.
a strong leader carries on his shoulders a lot of weaker - weaker than him - souls.